If you wake me up 5 times for no fucking reason, I will be cranky as shit.
It was at that moment, that I truly felt happy to the point that I started crying. I was watching a movie in my bedroom as I was making my best friend, Angelica, a bracelet that she requested. I don’t know what came to me when those tears started rolling down my face, but I knew I was happy. Although I had only spoke to her a little more than an hour ago, I picked up my phone and told her how happy I was she and I were friends. Seven years now and we’re still going strong. Even when we had that year or so hiatus that we drifted away, when we started talking again, it felt as if we were always present in each others lives. I’m happy and I love it. I wish I could feel like this forever.
According to my friend, I am a “lowkey hipster”. What does that even mean? haha
I don’t wanna be alone right now. I wanna spend time with people. Anyone. My parents are staying home after the funeral. My middle brother is MIA and my eldest brother is looking for apartments. I can’t stand to be alone right now. I need somebody. Anybody.
I only need a 62% on my AP Stats final to still have a low B in the class. I got a solid D on that test. I’m a happy camper.
I have a final tomorrow and I haven’t even started studying. Can you say fucked? Oh man, just be June 4th already so that I can graduate.
I am so confused about how I feel right now.
Someone said that I had the best taste in music. That made me really happy even though I can argue against it.
Why am I still awake? Why am I not tired? It’s fucking past 2am and I’m working on a damn english project that isn’t due until Tuesday.
I feel sad and physically weak.
Although this week was a tough week for my family and I, I’m happy tonight existed to cheer me up. Thank you Giyan for being such a wonderful prom date, regardless of how awkward we were. Mainly me. I would relive tonight if I could but I would exclude the excruciating pain my feet felt.
I’m sorry if my blog seems depressing but I’m sad.
Oh my god. This really makes me sad. I still can’t believe it. Rest in Peace Saul. You were the happiest person I’ve known.
